enquiries

During the clinic I googled ankylosing spondylitis, adalumibab, fluvoxamine, and helicobacter pylori.


Nothing new on Facebook.

mistake

My wife thinks it is all just a big mistake. There is really nothing wrong at all.

a little less self-absorbed

Yesterday at work I had a feeling of impending doom. It seemed that disaster was looming throughout the day. Everything I did could go wrong. I spent five hours operating in an agony of fear. In truth it is rare to complete a theatre list without at least one moment of panic, but this was constant. Later, in clinic, I felt that I had no sense of the right thing to say. Suddenly a consultation was a minefield.

 I felt as though I was blindfolded in the middle of the freeway.

Then I saw a patient whose last baby had died in labour elsewhere.  Her first baby was born by Caesarian Section and she was hoping for a vaginal delivery. She came into labour but then stopped. She was given intravenous oxytocin without seeing an obstetrician. The baby was well until six hours later her uterus ruptured. At the emergency Caesarian Section it was stillborn.
She was surprisingly lacking in resentment though obviously devastated by the experience, tears falling as she told the story. I can't imagine how a person can live with such grief.

After that I was a little less self-absorbed.

doner kebabs and bridal shops

A night out with my daughter in her new suburb.

seven bridal shops between her flat and the cafe - her boyfriend should be worried

tried the local bars

At last, a quiet bar open to the street on a balmy night.




When she was a teenager I upset my daughter. She told me that she thought we were friends. I said that I wasn't her friend - I was her father.
Now we really are friends. I respect her choices like a true friend. She likes our relationship.

She says that, anyway, she had enough friends when she was young.

She is glad now that she had a father as well.

fashion

There are fashions in personal and political beliefs which inhibit individual thinking. People want to know what to think, so they are part of a group. The media amplify these trends to simplify their message, inciting anger at non-conformity.