joy

Up in the night for VBAC in posterior position, pushing without progress against a swollen anterior cervical lip. Pushed back the cervix and applied the vacuum cup as posterior as possible, rotating with descent until a healthy baby was delivered. Then home but unable to sleep so I read for a while and finally sleeping again when another call came. I got up and looked out the window at the earliest light of dawn.

The moon was still shining but the sun was fast approaching. I went to work .

 Returning later the new day had begun.

I felt joyful for the first time in days.